being humiliated..WTF !

  ak xtw npe ppuan 2sgp mlu kn ak smp cm 2 skli..i've never felt so humiliated like that in all my life..perlu ke dy mlu kn ak smp cm 2?? perlu ke?? npe ak y dy aim.?.knp ak?? ak wt tutorial dy..ak xtpu. y ak xwt 2sbb ak btol2 xphm..so, ak tgl kn je la..
  ap slp ak kt mate dy..?hina sgt ke ak?? td ak tol2 ase t'hina gila2..rmai lg y lmbt..knp mst ak??
ak xpnah bnci kn owg smp cmni..mak ak xpnah ajr ak bnci owg..tmbh2 lecture o ckgu who is owg y ptt ak hormat..dowg mak ke2 ak..sies..ak bnci kau ! ak xpnah knl kau..kau xpnh wjd lam dnia ak..slme ni ak bhgia ng dnia ak..ak xpnh kcau idop owg..skgni ak nk g cls pon ak mlu..mlu kau tw x?? dak laki kau xpnah mlu kn dowg cm ap y kau wt kt ak..not fair ! 
  ak nyesal sgh2 sbb validate awl2..ak xbhgia kt cni..ak xbhgia ! mak..eka nk blk..eka xbhgia kt cni..eka stress sgt2..knp dowg smue treat eka cmni..?ap slh eka..?eka rela mti drpd d mlu kn cm 2..klu kt umah, ble eka ad mslh mak mst tenang kn eka..skg, spe nk pjuk eka..?spe nk tenang kn eka..? eka malu..
  next cls td, otak ak trs blank..ap y madam physic ajr 1ap pon ak xphm..smp kn ak skip cls ecm..ak xlh pk ppe time 2..cmne ak nk b'depan ng dak cls ak sok?mne ak nk ltk muke ak neh..?cmne ak nk control mate ak neh drpd m'nangis?cmne ak nk stdy mat?cmne ak nk time ilmu dy sdg kn ak bnci dy???


p/s : i need my mom !